Annual Mid-Seasonal Depression Wake-Up Call
This time of year is always… strange for me. It’s not necessarily depressing or overly joyous. It’s not really anything but “blah” for me. The holidays are wrapping up and the new year is on the horizon and it makes you all… reflective and junk. I feel like I just did this kind of post a year ago (I totally did) but it always seems to rear its ugly head at the end of December/beginning of January. But this year, seems different for some reason. Maybe because last year, the beginning of January was such a dark and sad time for me.
The spring and most of summer was tough as well. It wasn’t until after my birthday and a vacation in July that things started to look up - and that’s a stretch. Looking back, I’m not exactly ecstatic about where I am, but it’s certainly better than where I was.
Like so many others, I had goals for 2018 and not all of them were fulfilled. This year, I again have goals but I am making them more attainable: Travel more & do yoga - but I don’t expect to see half of Europe or perfect my Lord of The Dance pose. Save money - something I am absolutely horrible at - to get my own place and feel like a successful adult for once. Move on to a job that I can see myself calling a career - not just a placeholder. You know, little things.
At the end of the year, I hope to be able to look back and be proud of at least five things I accomplished this year, instead of looking back on the failures things that didn’t work out the way I had planned. Instead of making specific goals for 2019 like “lose 25 pounds” or “become the social media correspondent for a major hockey team” but instead, setting goals such as “get back into kickboxing and tone up” and “get a job in media.”
It just seems healthier.
And that’s the main goal for 2019. I aim to be healthier physically as well as mentally, emotionally and spiritually. It won’t be an easy task, but I have a whole year to work on it.
Hopefully one thing I’ll work on and see some success at is this blog. My last post was 11 months ago! So if you’re reading this, please share/leave a comment - any feedback you may have, as long as it’s positive. No negative vibes will be entertained.